II

6

Royal

I hope your girl treats you like a king,
just like you deserve to be
and just like I would have treated you
if only you’d allowed me.

7

Hypnagogia

As I was waking up today, before
even the alarm clock going off, for
a couple moments I yet lingered on
in the blissful state of oblivion,
where there’s no dreams but neither waking stress,
before I fully regained consciousness
and the suppressed excruciating pain
of missing you hit me full force again.

8

Sudden palpitations

Yesterday night, when I was, as usual, praying,
including for you and your whole family,
all of a sudden my heart started wildly
beating. It confounded me since it was throbbing

near as fast as when I danced with you one May day,
just as you stretched your hand out to me, smiling
eagerly and straight into my eyes looking,
and I, frozen by the surprise (to your dismay)

by both your gesture and what my heart was doing,
felt uncertain about what I should do next
(a dilemma that keeps me ever since vexed),
the intentions behind your offer questioning.

I can’t help but wonder what would have happened and
what would have been now had I only given
you my hand then—had you waited a moment
longer for me to do so. How would we then end?

9

Clivo

Dnes mi už od rána akosi zvláštne zviera srdce
a je mi clivo za tebou.
A ja ani neviem prečo—či je to tým počasím
alebo proste len láskou (?)

10

Follow up

…and the whole day I’ve been holding on just fine,
but all of a sudden, just before bed time,
I burst into tears in a new wave of pain
so big it’s ungraspable by any rhyme.

11

Unlikely

The way guys so far have been
reacting to me,
I don’t think there is any
love waiting for me.

12

Oh, Lord

Why do You send into my life
only guys who can never love me back?
Why do You let me fall in love
with them when all I get is a heartbreak?