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27

Out of your way

You know, in some subverted way,
it is kind of (I must disclose)
strangely flattering to know that
you’re doing things for or because

of me which you’re never doing
for the sake of anybody else,
even though that you approach it
in a rather negative sense.

You still go the extra mile waaay
out of your way to avoid me,
which gives me a sad feeling of
uniqueness and speciality.

I wish I was on the other
end of your affection, I do,
because I would eagerly walk
to the end of the world for you.

To my sorrow, that’s something you’re
now doing for another lass
out of love and not disgust, like
you do it for my sake, alas!

28

The problem of socials

If someone keeps their profile public
and puts up public posts, pics, and vids,
they, naturally, can’t get mad when
the public looks them up, sees, and reads.

I am just one of the public
like any other woman or man,
so can look at whatever I want,
same as them. Therefore, by looking when
posts were public, I’ve done you no wrong
and you’re over-reacting again.

29

You can

You can avoid me, you can hide, you can run away,
you can cut me off in every conceivable way,
but nothing that you do
can make me unlove you.

30

My patron saints

Both of my venerated patron saints
were beatified for being virgins,
living lives full of struggles and restraints.
How could I then have expected my life
to turn out any different and hoped to
become a girlfriend, let alone a wife?

31

Night and day

Whenever at night I
happen to cry a ton,
the next day the more I
feign nothing’s going on.

32

Lesson

I didn’t want you to be a lesson;
I can’t even fathom what it’d be on;
what more it could teach me or might evince
that I hadn’t already well known, since
this time I didn’t do anything wrong.
I wanted you to be my love life-long.